Midnit 2/10/68
A wonderful event:
Patti graduated 1/26 – S.J.S. The multiple feeling are still mulling about within the mind-body; one thing has been realized: one can - & not be held back by fear, one can – he is neither superior or lesser – one can – if he expresses his inner feelings openly.
Acceptance of one’s self & barriers seem to never have been…
Moments intensified – of sane & insane instance:
Culmination of involvement & experiment; client things opening - & like the strength of a wee spider’s web the threads of many movement & of many moment take form:
& passing winds brush its side…
But in its time of wholeness – it is:…
The architectural action of coming to conclusions through essay, discussion, & debate can best be exemplified by Nietzche’s probing:
The seeking of principles & opinions are not these things that form one’s character – but the very nature of one’s thinking causes one’s judging – the setting up of principles –
- I find it to be a bit of both:
Instinct – inherit nature & the actual seeking of P&O (including the P&O that is available at the time & the situation at hand)
& in my opening to the inner-action of all – my force is ripe to come together with the force of Vince, my counterpart without which Patti is not
Without which there would be continuance – but incomplete, lacking full development – limited to half – an unnurtured continuance.
…And, as it is – a silent grand feeling throughout… this just concludes my [illegible] of [P.S.S?]. I still miss the beauty of people here, the [sincere?], [two words illegible] – the [illegible] [willing?] to [care?] my [illegible] to the [two words illegible] – [illegible] things that [illegible] the quiet of morn – till he reaches a weary, numb [illegible] – [illegible] of lightness & laughter, of beauty for [illegible] & peace. And from this [illegible] of many [illegible], this place [illegible] on [illegible] paint a [illegible], & shall [illegible]. I’ll have 8 [illegible] to live in [Menlo?], to [illegible] up the little house of the apt: a new fence, a [illegible], a [illegible], point & [illegible].
Dr. Carl Duncan and Patricia Whiting Collection (SJSU)
